On New Years
I am not a fan of vast and sweeping New Year's Resolutions. However, I do find myself wanting to slow down and reflect as the weather turns cold and the holiday season begins. I find this time of year to be one of stillness, though I hesitate to make such a distinction this year as 2020 has been different in many obvious ways.
I started out by saying I don't like vast and sweeping New Year's Resolutions because I don't think they work. I think it's delusional to believe that between December 31 and January 1 you become an entirely new person, permanently changed because you might hang up a new wall calendar you got yourself for Christmas.
Ok rant over.
Again, presently I still find myself naturally gravitating toward self-reflection and intention setting. I am an introspective person of action and at this time of year I have a bit more freedom to let my thoughts settle and take small actions toward my true desires as my calendar is filled with fewer obligations.
At the beginning of quarantine I devoted myself to posting social media content at least once per day and I have followed through on that since March. I created an Instagram calendar making sure my content was diversified and reflective of my skill set. I continued posting monthly blogs as well. I have been extremely disciplined in an effort to imbue our world with music at a time when things can seem so dull and sad. This kept me motivated and helped me build my business.
Lately I've found myself feeling less lackluster about my internet presence to say the least. I love creating inspirational graphics but I'm not feeling up to posting minute lessons anymore. I love singing what is in my soul but I'm not interested in creating performance videos because a calendar tells me to, especially if those performances fell, well, performative as opposed to authentic.
I've spent the last three months studying music therapy, undergoing a process of inner work and transformation as I learn to guide others through this process musically and psychologically. Going forward, I prefer to post and blog in a way that feels intuitive and authentic rather than prescribed. I'll still be here, but I'll be here in a way that is more aligned with who I am. There may be less content, but that content will be wholly reflective of the experience I wish to create, meaning you're more likely to see posts like this:
and fewer like this:
I find this to be a more personal and authentic approach that nurtures me in ways I desire right now. Hopefully that can translate to all of you.
Last update: I will be teaching through Wednesday, December 23 and then my studio will be closed until January 2, 2021.
Enjoy as much peace as you can while 2020 winds down. I'll see you in the next wall calendar.